Friday, November 03, 2006

Single Stem - Chapter 5

Previously: Taking the first step on making a new life as a single woman, Maggie sets off for London. Her cousin, her sister and a work colleague have all given her some marching orders: have sex with a minimum of two different men and find out what sexual liberation is all about.



Chapter 5

A soft bed seemed to be calling to Maggie as she was ushered into her room at the Strand House Hotel. The bellhop deposited her luggage on a rack and than proceeded to point out the key features of the modestly sized space. For the next three weeks this would be home, with its elegant décor and antiques. The furniture was Queen Anne, light and feminine, with a desk, sofa and two matching chairs upholstered in yellow silk brocade. The walls were papered in a Victorian print with yellow as the main color, and the heavy woodwork was painted a shiny white. Two large windows gave her a view of the street below, where cars were packed tightly on the road, moving in unison if they wanted to get anywhere.


Hidden discreetly in an armoire was a very modern television, directly across the room from the huge, luxurious bed where she longed to slide under the warm blankets. The crisp tailored bedspread, a perfectly pressed sheet of gold cotton, looked as if it had been starched, with the pillows fluffed up and placed at the upholstered headboard in a precise arrangement.

Everything was so perfect that Maggie almost hated to begin unpacking, as if her little odds and ends would shabbily clutter the dresser top. The thought of doing anything besides sleeping was nearly inconceivable, as Maggie’s brain told her it was nearly six in the morning, while the clock on the nightstand was definitely reading 11:28 a.m.


“Mr. Doyle sent these, Mrs. Angiolini,” the bellhop indicated a vase full of colorful flowers, a bright bouquet of yellow roses and peach jonquils among sprigs of soft baby’s breath. The flowers had been placed on the desk in such a way that the window seemed to frame them like a still life. The color of the blooms matched flawlessly with the décor of the room, as if an interior decorator had furbished the room to coordinate with that one bouquet.


“I don’t think I know a Mr. Doyle,” she replied as she handed the man a tip.


“He’s very famous here in the U.K., ma’am. One of the most popular actors with the ladies, if you get my meaning.”


“So he’s a handsome leading man? Do you mean Ciaran Doyle?” Maggie asked in all innocence. Of course she had heard of the noted actor, originally from Manchester, who had started his career as a comedian. Ciaran Doyle had a talent for serious drama, and he had been featured in several British productions. Back home, Maggie had seen him most recently in an American film in which he played the role of an Irish revolutionary during the Easter Rebellion. In London, he often appeared in West End plays, and he was seen regularly in BBC dramas that were generally not broadcast in Chicago. Women adored the devilish twinkle in his gray eyes.


“He’s playing Dr. Shannon in Grosvenor Casualty Ward tonight at eight, and my wife will sit in front of the television and I can’t talk to her until nine thirty,” he explained.


“How old is this Doyle character?” Maggie asked as she rummaged through the desk, looking for a piece of paper. She wrote a note as Tim Horton, her bellhop guide to London, filled in the details on Mr. Doyle. According to his official biography, he was about thirty-seven, never married, but always in the company of an attractive woman. He was currently working on a new film for an American movie company, the production of which was delayed due to problems with the screenwriter.


Maggie pulled out a sampling of flowers from the vase and handed them to Tim, along with the note for his wife. “Well, I,m here to fix those problems so the film can be finished. Here, Tim, I appreciate your information. Give these to your wife, from Ciaran Doyle and me, and you’ll get more than a peck on the cheek if you get my meaning.”


“Can I give her the card, ma’am, that he signed?” Tim asked sheepishly.


“Oops, I never read it, how rude of me,” Maggie smiled as she opened the envelope. “Beautiful flowers for a beautiful woman, to express my hope for a successful script. Your friend, Ciaran Doyle. That’s sweet. Here, take this too. Say, can you find me any sort of magazine or newspaper article about him before I leave for my meeting?”


Tim flew down to the lobby of the Strand House Hotel, the bundle of flowers clutched in his hand. This was a job for the concierge, to quietly tell their American guest all about Mr. Doyle. They knew him well at the hotel, because the actor often stayed overnight at Strand House, always sneaking in through the back entrance with his lover for the evening. The bellhop had seen at once that this Mrs. Angiolini looked like his type, which was an attractive and elegant woman with a set of knockers that made a man dream of sex. Without a doubt, Horton was certain that he would once again pick up a few quid from the paparazzi that hung around Strand House, waiting for a tip that a famous roué was stealing out of the hotel with a pretty woman on his arm.


With the water temperature set a bit cold, Maggie stepped into the shower to try to wake up. She hurriedly dried her hair and re-applied her make-up before throwing on some clean clothes, choosing a gray flannel skirt and a black turtleneck sweater, something rather casual but still suitable for a business meeting. Shortly after noon she phoned home to tell Joey that, so far, the trip was fine but she missed her boy very much. Kay chatted about her first day as surrogate mom, and Maggie described the antique furnishings in her very lovely room. A knock at the door interrupted their conversation.


“Sorry to disturb you, Mrs. Angiolini,” Mr. Towson seemed to bow as he spoke. “You were inquiring about Mr. Doyle.”


“If a stranger sends me flowers,” Maggie began, casting a glance at the bouquet.


“As concierge of Strand House, I make it my duty to see to all of our clients’ needs. I have selected a copy of News and Views for you that you will find very informative. And may I assure you, madam, that we respect the privacy of our guest. Your husband will never…”


“He’s dead,” Maggie cut in, her temper a bit short due to her fatigue, and she greatly disliked this man’s insinuations. “But thank you anyway.”


“I am very sorry, Mrs. Angiolini. If there is anything that you need, please do not hesitate to call on me.”


Mr. Towson bowed his way out of the room while mentally preparing himself for the circus that would soon be the rear entrance of the hotel. Striding down the long corridor, he inspected the picture frames for dust while he attempted to inspect the mind of the randy actor, who started every new love affair at Strand House. Staring at a copy of Gainsborough’s Blue Boy, the concierge asked the replica child why the hotel held such significance for Doyle. The chambermaid always received some extravagant gift when the actor checked out, making the man wildly popular below stairs. Fulfilling an urgent request to change damp, sweaty sheets in the middle of the day was deserving of a bonus, but paying the maid to keep her mouth shut was the more likely purpose of the bribe. The elevator door opened, and Towson cast a last glance at Mrs. Angiolini’s door. The circus had most definitely come to town.


With only a few minutes remaining before the car was expected, to ferry her through the streets of London to the BBC Studios, Maggie thumbed through the guidebook that Bill Goebel had given her as a departing gift. As she knew he would, he had already selected several key tourist attractions for her to visit if time permitted. A flag with a star inked on it was pasted on the page that listed the used bookshops on Charing Cross Road. Bill had quickly learned that Maggie loved old books, and she was particularly fond of history in any form. As she looked down the list, with the foreign addresses, she absent-mindedly rubbed her cheek where he had kissed her goodbye. She had attached a nickname to him on the day that she left, but she was not convinced that Mr. Better Than Nothing was an accurate description of what he meant to her, and she found herself deliberating on the point as she stared blankly at the page.


At five minutes before one, Maggie picked up her coat and briefcase and headed to the lobby to wait for her ride. Mr. Towson saw her there, with the tabloid paper he had given her, and he strolled over with a cup of coffee for his American guest, along with another magazine. “For medicinal purposes, Mrs. Angiolini. You seem a bit jet-lagged.”


“You can read my mind, can’t you?” she asked as she sipped the coffee, strong and black. “So this Ciaran Doyle can’t keep his fly zipped.”


“Mr. Hofmeier left very specific instructions that we look after you. My assistant has assured me that, as a single woman, you would need this sort of information to be properly, forewarned is how she put it.” Mr. Towson spoke graciously despite his discomfort as he handed her the news magazine, which contained a very detailed story about Doyle’s reputation as a womanizer.
Maggie had only enough time to thank Towson for his wise counsel; the car was waiting for her. As she climbed in, she experienced the sort of disorientation that came with driving on the left side of the road. Her driver said little at first, but he noticed her head swiveling from side to side as he navigated the crowded streets, and he began to point out the sights as they passed. He had to smile at his passenger, who was not too sophisticated to be thoroughly excited about her first trip to London. With so much to see, she forgot about the article that the assistant concierge had provided, and she ran out of time before she had a chance to read one word.


“They’ll call me when you’re ready to return, ma’am,” the driver explained before she could ask how she was to get back to Strand House. “You’ll find me right back here.”


Almost running, Maggie raced into the building, full of the elation that came with setting off on a journey and discovering a new place. “Maggie Griffith Angiolini, I have an appointment at one-thirty,” she said to the receptionist.


Ciaran Doyle dropped his newspaper as he heard her midwestern voice, the vowels sounding hard to his British ears. Clever and determined could be the words to describe the actor, when he had called Quinlan and Associates last week and pretended to be his assistant. Very coy he had been when talking to the girl who answered the phone, as he asked if Mr. Angiolini was accompanying his wife, and would he take offense should she receive flowers from a strange man. Mr. Angiolini had passed away at the end of last year, the woman had explained, and Maggie would love to find flowers when she got to London. She was very fond of roses, the receptionist had gone on, spewing out little bits of data that Ciaran had carefully written down in a notebook.


Without ever meeting her, he already knew that she was considered quite good-looking by the men who worked at the law firm on the upper floors of the Chicago office building. She had blond hair, sort of close to her natural color but lightened every month, and very nice brown eyes that seemed to penetrate the head of the person she fixed her gaze on. Originally he was planning on a short affair, a bit of fun for Mrs. Angiolini if her husband was at home, but she was blessedly single. Doyle was growing tired of sowing wild oats, but he had not met a woman lately who was not an actress, and certainly none of his recent lovers were the sort of girl he wanted to marry. He had never asked Maggie’s age, a foolish mistake, and now he was sitting in the lobby of the BBC Studios, waiting for her to appear. One look told him that she must be close to his age, and hopefully young enough to produce a child or two.


“Mrs. Angiolini,” he offered his hand as he looked her over. A bulky coat covered her figure, but he liked her face. “Ciaran Doyle. Did the flowers arrive?”


“Oh, yes, thank you so much,” she smiled back, a slight frown indicating that he was either more handsome than anticipated, taller than expected, or she did not care for his aftershave. A hint of a flush crept across Maggie’s cheek as her brain clicked into high gear, her hand drifted up towards her neck and she cleared her throat. An expert at reading signs, he could hear her hips calling out to him, blood pulsing through veins grown dry from weeks of neglect.


“We can’t have you wandering the halls,” he went on, his gray eyes twinkling with the famous Ciaran Doyle sparkle. “This way to the lift.”


As they rode up to the sixth floor, Maggie asked him about Manchester while she blabbered about her cousin’s mother-in-law whose family emigrated from Dublin to Liverpool. In her friendly and open manner she told him all about her father’s ancestors who set sail from Cork long ago, fleeing the Great Hunger. Ciaran felt as if a warm spring breeze was gently blowing through the elevator as Maggie talked. This American woman was pleasant, with no pretensions; Ciaran could have been talking to an old acquaintance, she spoke so comfortably. Best of all, he was sure that Maggie had no idea how famous he was, or if she did, she was not concerned with his stardom. She could have been greeting the dairyman making a delivery, and Ciaran gratefully breathed in the comfortable air.


He thought of her as Sweet Maggie, from the provincial backwater of Chicago, a woman who did not realize that Ciaran Doyle’s face was so familiar that he could not easily wander the streets without attracting attention, and she certainly would not know that he had made a game of sleeping with as many women as he could. As the doors opened, he put a hand on Maggie’s back to guide her out of the elevator. For only a brief instant he caught her eye and he found an expression of saintly innocence on her face. His life’s goal had been to enjoy the pleasures of sex before he settled down with a wife. Now he had three weeks to enjoy her company; if they made a good couple he would turn it into a lifetime together. She was the sort of woman he had been looking for.


Bea Parkhurst was already in the conference room, looking as bleary-eyed as Maggie. There were several others sitting around the table, and Maggie met the script supervisor, who was a very charming young woman in the employ of the BBC. Next, she was introduced to the director of the film. Bob Hurleburt looked positively nasty, ready to fight Maggie every step of the way if only to be stubborn. Karl Hofmeier had left a few bitter enemies behind, and Bob was perhaps the most bitter. It had not helped the situation when Hofmeier kept bringing up the one film that Hurleburt had directed three years ago, the most dismal failure of his long career, using that one film to prove that the man was obviously incompetent. Bob gave a perfunctory grunt by way of a greeting, meeting all of his requirements for polite manners when facing the enemy. They sat down to wait for Trevor Harwood, who was Hurleburt’s staunchest ally in the battle.


Maggie slipped off her coat, and Bob felt that he was going to lose the war. She had a decent figure for a woman over thirty, but the proportions were Italian, not Irish. He was nearly horrified to discover that the American editor was built like those Italian sex goddesses of his youth, voluptuous females with curves, and not at all like the other women who sat around the table. Most men had one particular female body part that they were obsessed with. Bob could look at legs for hours, Ciaran was partial to the nape of the neck, but Trevor was a breast man. Hurleburt knew from experience that the ceiling could fall down and Trevor would never notice, not with his eyes fixed on the two mounds of flesh that filled out the black sweater. One could count on Trevor to be thoroughly absorbed in determining if Maggie’s breasts were real, padded, or silicone.


Bea’s friends, her gaggle of hens in truth, were meeting Maggie and welcoming her to their clutch. There would be no need for her to ever eat alone for the next three weeks, because the ladies were already filling her evenings with pub crawls and fine dining, London style. All the girls were so involved in their plans that they did not notice the grand entrance of Trevor Harwood. Bob buttonholed him at once, hoping to fortify the actor’s will before he became hopelessly distracted. Ciaran and the other actors were conferring when Trevor finally announced his presence, and the much dreaded meeting was begun.


“Are we still waiting for Hofmeier’s hatchet lady?” Trevor said loudly, grinning at his clever remark.


A woman’s hand extended toward him, and he looked at the strange face that glared at him. “Maggie Griffith Angiolini, Quinlan and Associates. Do sit down, it will be easier to extract your foot from your mouth.”


“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to imply,” he spluttered, but Maggie’s Irish was up.


“You meant every word, Mr. Harwood. Let’s move on, I’m tired and I’m cranky,” Maggie said coldly.


He looked exactly like she thought that he would, with brown hair and brown eyes, and a smile that reminded her of a devilish imp, with a promise of mischief behind the grin. As he stood next to Ciaran, she saw that the two men were about the same height, but Ciaran gave the impression of being more powerfully built, very strong and dangerously masculine. Trevor was best described as being an average, everyday kind of gentleman, and the sort of man who blended in with the crowd. His opening line was brilliantly dumb, making him quite human and somehow vulnerable.


Lunch appeared, served by assistants who appeared as quietly as ghosts. Between bites of cold sliced beef and steamed vegetables, the little groups of men and women at the table talked among themselves, saving business for discussion on a full stomach. Trevor kept looking over at Maggie, to see if she was glaring daggers at him, and he noticed that she never touched the meat.


“Good God, another animal lover,” he snorted, poking his head towards Maggie.


“Perhaps she doesn’t eat meat,” Bob said, his voice indicating a slightly obscene double entendre.


“Look at the muscles in her cheeks,” Ciaran said with deep admiration. “Firm, well-toned. She’ll be nibbling an authentic banger before the week is out. Bit of toad in the hole for the little lady.”


One end of the table erupted into laughter as the men carried on their deeply intellectual discussion of oral sex. Trevor looked up, looked too long actually, and Maggie felt his eyes on her. She returned his gaze, and Trevor had to look away, as if he was embarrassed at being caught. Bob had asked him about Maggie’s figure, if Trevor the resident expert thought that she was all natural or artificially crafted, and Trevor was trying very hard to make his determination by look alone. Ciaran was boasting that he would find out for himself, with his hands rather than his eyes, and he had already sent the lady flowers so there was a decided advantage for him to be the first to uncover her secrets.


After a while, Trevor was only half-listening to the manly gossip. He was thinking about Allison, his beloved wife, a victim of breast cancer two years ago. She fought it off for a while, determined to conquer the disease that was gradually spreading its deadly fingers through her body. Allison was always trying to be cheerful for her husband, even ribbing him good-naturedly about his fascination with tits. She was practically flat chested, and he would often comment on the irony of his love of such a washboard as Allison.


“Dr. Fosgrove can do reconstructive surgery after chemotherapy and radiation,” Allison had assured him as she was preparing herself for a double mastectomy. “I’ll have him make me a couple of big knockers, better than the original model.”


Everything had seemed so positive back then, and he went along with her jokes. After the treatments, she planned to have one more operation to recreate her figure, to restore her body to that of a woman. Trevor and Allison both had hope, and Allison was so sure that she would recover. Once, shortly after the surgery, he found her looking at the adverts in the Sunday Mirror. “After I get new ones, darling, I’m going to wear this,” and she was pointing to a Lejaby push-up bra, sexy as only the French could invent. But she never was well enough for the reconstruction. The rounds of chemotherapy left her violently ill, and Trevor could remember so clearly how he would gently sponge her face after she had been vomiting for hours. Her beautiful auburn hair had fallen out in handfuls and clumps, to lie dead on the bathroom floor.


Later there was radiation, then more tests and a glimmer of hope. Their daughter Callista graduated from Cambridge and Allison was there, wearing a wig to cover her bald head. Will began his own studies at the university a few months later, and Allison was just strong enough to help her son move into his flat. Her hair had begun to grow back by then, sparse and short, shot through with gray. Then came more tests and more waiting, but the disease had snaked its way into her brain and nothing seemed to stop it.


“Is that acceptable, Trevor?” Bob was almost shouting, and Harwood started at the sound. The meeting had been going on for some time, but his mind was somewhere else.


“Sorry?” he asked, dazed. Maggie was looking at him again; he saw her smiling at him with a funny look. It was something familiar, but he could not place it.


“To add a shot of a baby’s rattle perched on the parlor sofa. The camera will pan in, we dub in the sound of a bomb hitting nearby, then a bit of plaster dust before a fade out,” Bob explained.


“I was told that you objected to the woman going back into the house because there was no reason for it,” Maggie said. “Mr. Hurleburt can very subtly show that she returned for her child’s favorite toy.”


She was pleasant now and not at all short-tempered. Trevor was noticing her hair, which made her face look just as cute as a button. It was a ridiculous phrase that had come to his mind, simply because she was a mature woman. He was greatly relieved to see that she was not holding a grudge against him for his crude comment, and he carried on with his quest to alter the script.


“No, it’s too ridiculous. Really, Mrs. Angiolini, no woman would run back into a building, with bombs falling all around her, to retrieve a rattle,” Trevor said testily. He was determined to have his own way.


“I would,” she replied, cold as stone. There was that look again, something in the way that her eyes flashed. He liked her eyes, with their soft light brown gaze that seemed to bore into his skull and read his thoughts.


“Your children must be spoiled brats,” he murmured, but she heard him.


“My son is spoiled, Mr. Harwood, and I happily spoiled my husband too. I am sorry if you can’t understand the concept of a selfless act,” she retorted, losing control of her emotions in a jet-lagged, over-tired tone of voice.


“Before my wife died, I was blessed by her advice on my scripts,” he put in. He said it on purpose, to retaliate for the body blow that Maggie had landed. Karl Hofmeier’s gnarly fist, applied to Trevor’s British nose, would have been less painful than this woman’s shot to his gut. “The loss of my wife has been devastating to me, and I am very sorry that you are not satisfied by my analysis. I wish that she were here to review this script with me, but then how could you possibly appreciate the loss of a wife?”


That blow hit the mark, as Maggie’s hard look melted into one of sympathy. He had the upper hand now, and with a firm strength he kept his features from sliding into a smile. From the corner of his eye he could see that Ciaran was looking a bit shocked, and Bea was glaring at him. Perhaps he had struck back with too much force, but Hofmeier had started this particular fight. If Maggie came along to finish it, she had best expect to be bloodied.


“Lose a wife?” she replied, enunciating the last word with a slight drop of venom. “No, Mr. Harwood, I could never appreciate the loss of a wife.”


“You may not be aware of my vast experience on the stage and in front of the camera,” Trevor continued. He was feeling all-powerful now; she was against the ropes and he would go in for the knockout. “I am considered to be a very skilled actor, Mrs. Angiolini, but even with my talent I cannot hope to bring a breath of realism to some of these scenes.”


“I know that you are extremely talented, Mr. Harwood,” she replied, and he found himself fidgeting in his seat as he detected the familiar facial expression again.


“Can we jump ahead to the next scene,” he said. He was beginning to fall back as he tried to remember where he had seen that look before. “My character is supposed to dig through the rubble, with his bare hands, and uncover his fiancée’s hand, now holding this rattle. I find that a bit silly, rather trite actually.”


“Real life is often trite if one chooses to pick it apart and analyze every crumb,” Maggie answered, still strong in her desire for a victory.


Trevor’s mouth was beginning to gape as he remembered who else had given him that glance. Now he knew what it was; Maggie was mocking him with her eyes while her mind was guffawing, in rolling on the floor laughing hysterics. Only Allison had ever before slapped him into sensibility with her laughing eyes and now Maggie was doing it. Deflate the ego, you pompous buffoon, her eyes told him. Allison had reined him in just like that, when he started to slide out of control. A slack-jawed stare said that Harwood’s fire was spluttering, he was buckling, and the scene was going to stay, far-fetched or corny though it might be.


“I am sorry about Mrs. Harwood,” Maggie said, sincere in her expression. “If you would allow me to put in my thoughts, as a woman.”


Trevor was suddenly turned into the dutiful pupil who was listening with rapt attention. Mrs. Angiolini was not a hatchet lady, as far as he was concerned, she was a kind woman who cared enough about the great actor to gently remind him that he was merely a man and not a god. Like his late wife, only her eyes spoke in a silent rebuke, without words that others could hear. Maggie gave him one look to tell him he was behaving very badly and it was time to stop. In his mind, she became Allison, but an American version with gorgeous tits that he desperately wanted to hold in his hands. Still, he could see that she was not Allison; rather she was someone he could love as he had loved his late wife.


Bob closed his script with a disgusted sound of defeat, folding his hands on top of the cover as he waited for the meeting to end. There was no way that Trevor could begin to explain what had just happened, or tell his colleagues why he had so abruptly come around. As Ciaran leaned back in his chair, smiling with admiration for the lovely Maggie, Trevor braced himself. She was about to go in for the kill, to drive the final nail into the coffin that contained the remains of his resistance, and he would meekly submit.


“I should have asked you, Mrs. Angiolini, for the same kind of advice I once had from my wife,” Trevor said, meekly asking for her forgiveness. “I must sound like a fool running on like I did.”


“This will be an action film, to appeal to a male audience. It needs these elements, I think, to make it a little more of a ‘chick flick’. Bring the same level of intensity that you exhibited in Chateau Thierry and you’ll probably win that Emmy, instead of going home disappointed again.” Maggie was smiling like an angel, even though she had just kicked Trevor after he was down.


Ciaran found himself laughing at his own stupidity. Maggie knew who they were, and she had probably seen most of the movies or television shows that they had starred in. What was different about her was the fact that she did not make a fuss or gush like a star-struck schoolgirl. Instead, she came into the conference room as a professional businesswoman, with the poise of a confident individual who knew her material. If Ciaran were tallying the points that he most admired about Maggie, he would have awarded her another score. “Come clean, now, Mrs. Angiolini, and confess. Which other faces do you know here?” he challenged her.


“Oh, gosh, a test and my mind not fully alert. Let’s see, Sara Larimer in Obsession, Ken Simpson in that series about the police detective, and the chauffeur in Backstairs Affair,” and Maggie began to go around the conference table, pointing to each of the five actors and rattling off some of their most recent work. She diplomatically skipped over the scandal, never mentioning the messy divorce of Ken Simpson and Sara Larimer. “It is due to the wonders of satellite transmission and all those marvelous BBC imports. And perhaps some day, ladies and gentlemen, you will even be good enough for the Brandenburg Theatre in Chicago.”


With a wink at Ciaran, Maggie got up to leave with Pamela Marbright, the head of costumes for this production. The remark about the Chicago theatre troupe was a parting reminder to Doyle that Chicago had a lively theatre scene; the dramas that came out of the award-winning Brandenburg were routinely sold out when they played in Covent Garden’s theatres. Any actor with a soul knew of Brandenburg’s reputation worldwide, and half of the people at the table had begged to be introduced to Chicagoan Jim Paretsky when he appeared in Selling Sauganash Glen last year. Trevor’s dream was to be given a role, no matter how insignificant the part, to have the chance to give life to one of the powerful characters that populated the stage in that Chicago playhouse. Maggie Griffith Angiolini had set them all in their place with her clever comment, and with it she earned everyone’s respect.


“What’s wrong with you, Harwood?” Bob asked, very peeved to have lost out on his quest to eliminate the one scene that he really detested.


“She was absolutely right about giving the women something to sob over. We’d lose over half the audience if this were only another war picture,” Trevor explained.


“Well, my changes sailed through without a word of argument,” Ciaran put in, very proud of his flower-bedecked groundwork. “And now, if you will excuse me, I have a dinner date to arrange.”


“That’s the fastest he’s ever worked,” Ken whistled. Ciaran had seduced Ken’s ex-wife about three years ago, before the divorce, but it had taken Doyle a full month of flirting before he finally got her in bed.


“Mrs. A. will probably be equally swift,” Bob noted, “or am I the only one who noticed that her wedding ring must have just come off within the past twenty-four hours?”


Bea was walking out the door with the script supervisor as Trevor was leaving. She gave him a frosty glare, something that threw the actor off balance. He had known Bea since they first started out, fresh out of university. They had been close friends since those days, when Bea married Trevor’s best friend and Trevor married Allison. “You were certainly Mr. Sensitive this afternoon,” Bea hissed as she hurried away.


“What was that for?” Trevor asked his male companions. They could only shrug their shoulders, for who knew what women were thinking sometimes. At this point, he did not care about Maggie’s husband, and he was giving some serious consideration to breaking up Mrs. Angiolini’s home. It made no sense for Bea to be upset with him; after all, if Maggie were indeed planning on cheating on her husband, it would not be his fault if she left the man.


Bea’s girls, with Maggie now included, set off for an Italian restaurant in Trafalgar Square, so quickly that Ciaran never had a chance to make a date. Maggie’s driver dropped them off in front of Nelson’s column, so that Maggie could gawk at the monument to Great Britain’s greatest naval hero, and then dip her fingers in the cold water of the magnificent fountains. A life spent in London had made the ladies blind to the sights and sounds that thrilled their guest, and they found themselves discovering their home town through the eyes of a tourist, someone who lived all her life in a city that rebuilt itself in 1871. In keeping with the theme of discovery, the group of six women stopped at an authentic British pub for the benefit of Maggie. That set the tone for the evening, and by the time she was deposited at Strand House at two in the morning, Mrs. Angiolini was pleasantly intoxicated.


The night clerk handed Maggie her room key with a smile, along with a message from Mr. Doyle. “Did you read this?” Maggie asked, gasping from shock. “I think he wants to sleep with me. Should I let him?”


Linda had worked the front desk at Strand House for the past year, straight out of school and very young. She had seen Ciaran Doyle many times, and if he would ever once ask her to share his bed, she would be out of her clothes and prone in two seconds. Not certain if it was appropriate to answer such a question, Linda decided that Mrs. Angiolini was probably inquiring because she was a little drunk and not very lucid.


“Oh, I’d have it off with him, ma’am,” Linda blurted out. Mrs. Angiolini was so forthcoming that the clerk fell into the same confidential tone. “He can do it all night, or say they say.”


“What about Trevor Harwood?” Maggie went on, a miner digging out nuggets of golden gossip. “I met him too, and I think he’s got the cutest ass and the prettiest eyes.”


“He’s too old for my taste, ma’am,” Linda said. “Fifty at least. Both good looking, in different ways.”


Maggie giggled a trifle too loudly. “Maybe I should do them both. Oh, separately of course.”

With that, Maggie said goodnight, laughing to herself as she read Ciaran’s sweet request.


“Why do we both sleep alone,” he had left as his message, “when we can dream of the world together.”

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Who's Fault?

The publishing industry is looking at the marketing. That's the reason, surely, that they can't sell more books. It's because the readers don't know. Knowledge is a powerful thing, and if the public only knew, then sales would climb.

With that in mind, they've asked their reps to stop in at little shops and the like, whatever catches their fancy, and try to convince the shop owner to add books to their line-up. The suits at Time Warner are even willing to coordinate the colors on the book cover with the store's products so that everything looks quite lovely together. Hence, the preponderance of such attractive tones as 'margarita' and 'sangria' on the HarperCollins jackets this spring. That's green and red to the rest of us. But you see, I don't judge a book by its cover. (I had to say it; it's just too tempting).

The marketing minds at places like Simon & Schuster realize that not everyone can get a book at a bookstore, particularly when they reside in a place like Ogallala, Nebraska or a similarly small town. They're not going to buy from Amazon if they can't turn the pages and read a bit to decide if they like the book. Placing books where people go, even if it is the feed store, is actually a very good idea, and non-book store sales have exceeded independent store volume. Given that there are fewer and fewer indie book sellers, I'd expect it. Just like placing how-to books at a hardware store would work, people will buy when the book fits the space.

There is one thing that the publishing houses could do to really boost sales. They could publish novels worth reading. They could publish novels that tell a story without getting cute, with multiple fonts and silly POV changes, that don't make a holy show of breaking the rules of grammar because it's do your own thing, baby. It's easier to play the marketing angle, to crunch numbers and come up with facts and figures. Good literature is art, not mathematics. Want to increase sales? Improve the product.

Single Stem - Chapter 4

Previously: Maggie's sister Kay has come for a visit, bringing her history professor boyfriend along. One of Maggie's clients, also a history professor, inserts himself into her life by crashing a dinner party and ruining Maggie's evening. She has been backed into a corner by another client who insists that she go to London to resolve a script dispute.

Chapter 4

A fresh bunch of red roses was waiting for Maggie on Monday morning, with a note of apology from Bill Goebel. “Forgive my haste,” he wrote, “and I regret that I upset you.”

“So, what did he do, try to kiss you or something?” Ann asked. She was not the least bit embarrassed about reading the note.

“No, he had a phenomenal climax before I was even close to an orgasm,” Maggie said sadly, using her best blank face look. “Premature ejaculation.”

“You slept with him?” Ann gasped in complete shock.

“Gotcha,” Maggie laughed, winking at the receptionist whose jaw hung open. “It was the most miserable night of my life.”

Ann acknowledged that her snooping had been duly punished, and she tapped a finger on Maggie’s wedding ring. “It will not get better until this is gone.”

“No, Ann, no matter what I’ll always be Franco’s wife.”

“Till death do us part, right? Pick yourself up and move on, make a new start, buy a whole new wardrobe.”

“I just paid the mortgage, I can barely afford a sandwich before next payday.”

“Wait a minute,” Ann said as she went back behind her desk. “This trip to London. Hofmeier sent your tickets and an itinerary. There’s your fresh start. Listen, Maggie, you can do anything you want. Once you go home you’ll never see these people again. Meet some guys, have casual sex, all the things you never did before.”

“Come on, me? I go to church every Sunday, for heaven’s sake.”

“I mean it. How many times have you looked at some cute guy and wondered what it would be like to spend a night with him and then tell him to go home when you were done?”

“Annie, I could have Bill Goebel any time I snap my fingers.”

“Big deal, you don’t want him. I’m talking about someone who makes your heart beat faster, like that lawyer who gets off the elevator at the tenth floor.”

“I can’t do that,” Maggie shook her head in disbelief. “Just jump into bed like some young girl.”

“Sure you can. Aren’t you from the ‘If it feels good, do it” generation?”

“Good Lord, I feel old now. Besides, some young stud would never look twice at me. I’m close to forty years old.”

“Wear a push-up bra and a low cut dress, old lady, and that young stud won’t raise his eyes all the way up to your face. All a man wants from a woman is what she has between her legs and sticking out of her chest, and in the morning he won’t remember what color your eyes are.”

Maggie began to chuckle at the thought, and she kept snickering all day when she imagined herself as an object of lust. In mid-snort, Theresa poked her head into the office on her way to lunch, to drop off a catalog that she was delivering as if it should have been covered in a plain brown wrapper. With a stern command, she practically ordered Maggie to buy a few new things for her trip.

“Oooh, look, Maggie,” Theresa said seductively as she opened the color brochure. “Lejaby imported from France. I know you love Lejaby lingerie as much as your sister.”

“Did Ann put you up to this?” Maggie asked, feeling as if a vast conspiracy was forming.

“No, Kay told me to give it to you. I know what the nuns told us, Mags, but those rules don’t apply to widows. You did that already, okay, you paid your dues and now it’s time to be a woman who enjoys sex because it is one of God’s gifts to womankind. I give you my permission to sleep with at least two different men while you’re in England. Two men in three weeks, not so difficult, great fun.”

“What? It’s two weeks, that’s what the lady from the production company said,” Maggie protested.

“Mr. Hofmeier made the arrangements. Your return flight is three weeks after your arrival. He’s paying for the whole thing, so go enjoy yourself. What is it that the French say about sex?”

“That it’s good for your skin,” Maggie mumbled as she thumbed through the pages of the catalogue, covered with pictures of exquisitely beautiful undergarments. For such lovely bits of nothing that went unseen, Maggie would revise her budget. It was a weakness, something that she and Kay indulged in every time Kay was in town. If anyone ever saw what the Griffith sisters wore under their ratty old jeans and sweatshirts, it would be shocking.

“And they’re right, it is good for the skin. Look at Kay’s complexion these days. Yum, check out that Gossard, gorgeous fabric.”

The two-week trip had been extended, since no visit to London was complete without a day at the Tower, and a tour of Westminster Abbey, and Hofmeier would not listen to one word of argument. It meant that three weeks of work would have to be compressed into the few days that remained before she left, and Maggie worked like a woman possessed. Ann’s suggestion about making a fresh start had settled into Maggie’s brain, and she had run up her credit card tab with an entire collection of outfits, tailored and elegant, to wear in London. And then there were all the goodies that she and Kay had ordered from the catalog, with not one article remotely sensible or dull. By the time that Kay and Fabrizio appeared at the door to begin their exploration of suburban life, Maggie was ready for an adventure.

“Don’t forget the orthodontist on the tenth,” Maggie said as the cab driver piled her luggage into the trunk. “And the tournament was rescheduled, there are three games on Sunday.”

Joey received so many hugs and kisses from his mother that he finally told her to go, leave, have a good trip. “I’ve got it all written down,” Kay assured her sister as she stepped into the cab.

“If anything happens to me, Kay, Joey is yours. I named you as his guardian. I’ll call when I get to my hotel.” Maggie waved out the window as the cab pulled away, drying her eyes with her other hand.

“Today, Joey, we will have donuts for breakfast like real Americans,” Fabrizio offered with a smile, looking lovingly at Kay. “You are so lucky, Kay. Your sister loves you very much.”

“Are you crying too, Aunt Kay?” Joey asked, amused by his mother and aunt with all their emotions and tears of goodbye. They hurried back into the house to get out of the cold, with Fabrizio easing a gentle hug on Kay’s shoulders.

“Of course I’m crying. As soon as your mother leaves, you start eating junk food. What am I supposed to tell her when she comes home and finds you all fat and pimply?” she sniffed.

Every morning, Maggie said a rosary, having begun the habit after her third miscarriage. Catholics were always making deals with God, and that was her agreement with the Lord. Give me a child, she had vowed, and I’ll send you a rosary every day for the rest of my life. Once Joey came along, she could never back out of the bargain, and so she started every day with the long string of prayers. As the car drove up the highway, making for Mitchell Field in Milwaukee, she pulled the beads from her purse and silently began. Houses and new subdivisions were a blur out the window as the car went north, her beads sliding through her fingers as each Hail Mary was said like a chant, the words no longer distinct in her thoughts but turned into one long word. HailMaryfullofgrace; she repeated the prayer ten times until the decade was finished, only to begin it again.

Passing the frozen fields of southern Wisconsin, she paused to look out the window at the white drifts of snow that were marked only by the tracks of snowmobiles that crisscrossed the empty land. She was making a new start with this trip, stepping into a new life that she had not chosen to live, not yet at least, but then it was not her choice to make. “Hail Mary, help me get back on my feet,” she prayed. “Our Father, help me to keep my head on straight, Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, show me the path because I don’t know which way to go.”

There was one more prayer, the one that their mother would offer to Kay when she was between romances. St. Anne, send me a man, as fast as you can. It was tempting to add that in, to make it her newest entreaty to the pantheon of saints. After only three weeks of being a widow, Maggie realized that she did not much care to sleep alone. With every passing day she longed for a man’s company, feeling utterly adrift without two strong arms to hold her at the end of the day.

Getting through the baggage check and security at the airport took hours, and once on the plane she was surprised to find that Mr. Hofmeier had put her into the first class cabin. She settled comfortably into her seat, with plenty of room for her legs to be stretched, and continued her prayers. Realizing that the image of a woman praying would be unnerving to her fellow passengers, especially with a rosary adding to the atmosphere of fervent supplication, she wrapped the beads around her hand to be discreet. As the plane began to taxi down the runway, she kissed the crucifix at the end of the chain and crossed herself. Setting her watch set to London time, she began to recalibrate her brain’s clock. By the time she switched planes in New York, Maggie had managed to convince herself that it was close to midnight and she was sleepy, even if her eyes were not ready to close just yet.

Bea Parkhurst scanned the faces in the cabin, searching for Maggie Griffith Angiolini. She had picked up something in Maggie’s tone when they had spoken, a midwestern frankness that convinced Bea that Maggie was the sort of woman that the producer liked to socialize with. She had taken to the widow at once, with Maggie’s intelligence and quick wit, and Bea looked forward to sharing London with the newcomer. Since her divorce a year ago, Bea gravitated to other single women and had cultivated a large group of friends; adding Maggie to the roster would happen naturally. There was a bit of the mother hen in Bea, a businesswoman who knew so well that it was never easy for a woman to travel alone. Her offer to fly together had come out of that motherly concern, but Maggie’s situation had rather intrigued the Englishwoman. Bea and all her friends were either single by choice or divorced, and Maggie was the first woman that Bea would meet who had been abruptly forced to go it alone.

“Maggie, you look like your voice,” Bea said as she shook Maggie’s hand. She settled into her seat on the aisle and fastened the seat belt.

“I was hoping that I would look better,” Maggie joked. She looked at Bea, a glance that asked the age of a woman who projected youth and vitality behind a creamy complexion that had only just begun to yield to gravity’s pull.It was hard to tell if Bea was forty-five or fifty-five, for she exuded the vibrant energy of a young woman even as the skin under her chin began to grow loose. “I’m sorry if I look surprised, but you look so much like my cousin Louisa.”

“Tell me she’s your favorite cousin, please,” Bea said.

“Better than that. She was my role model when I was growing up, since she was a little older and I thought she was so mature and stylish. My aunt came from Bristol, and my cousin looks just like her mother’s sister.”

“Was she a war bride? Oh my, I understand now why you and Mr. Hofmeier are so firm about that scene.”

“It’s more than my aunt’s tales that are set in my mind,” Maggie said. "Bea, please don’t tell anyone, but that scene is purely autobiographical. Hofmeier changed the main character into an English soldier, but the events are real.”

“Why the secrecy?” Bea asked, and as the plane took off she saw Maggie turn flat white. “Are you all right, Maggie?”

“Sorry, I hate flying. If I could swim to England I’d be happier.” There was silence until the plane leveled off, and then Maggie released her grip on the armrests. “The woman who dies in the blitz was going to be the first Mrs. Hofmeier. He never told his current wife, that’s why it’s such a secret.”

“We can’t change the scene at all,” Bea said with a touch of surprise. “I am sorry, I never understood before. Well, of course he would never bare his soul to us. And the main story, about the former soldier who goes to London in search of his son, are you telling me that Hofmeier, well, um.”

“He did find the boy, but the family had moved to Manchester by then. He changed the location to London to keep the story simple. Anyway, his fiancée’s parents had raised the boy as their son, referring to his mother as his sister. Oddly enough, Mr. Hofmeier understood their reasoning. He was going to marry the girl, but her father was a trifle irritated about the baby coming before the wedding, a little scandalous at that time. All those meetings between Hofmeier and his son, everything from the screenplay, that’s all true.”

“So the boy never knew his real father,” Bea observed, interested and deeply saddened by the story. “He always thought that Mr. Hofmeier was just his sister’s friend. But why did Hofmeier insist that the flashbacks show the soldier as a man of fifty?”

“He was that old when his son was killed in a traffic accident. It’s his way of expressing his deepest pain, that fifty-year old man is the one who lives through the previous episodes. Sort of artsy, but Mr. Hofmeier is rather eccentric.”

“But what did he tell his wife when he went to England all those times?”

“Some story about a local family that was kind to him when he was stationed there, kept in touch, that sort of thing. He used to send his son gifts for his birthday, as if he were only spoiling the baby of the family. Oh, God forgive me, I’ve said too much,” Maggie blurted out. “I shouldn’t have had that drink on an empty stomach.”

“No, don’t worry about anything. You have an ally at Argosy Productions, and not a word to anyone. I’ll help you convince them that this scene stays,” Bea squeezed Maggie’s hand in a gesture of friendship.

“Thanks so much, Bea, you’ve saved me from feeling like a blabbering fool. Let’s seal our bargain with another drink so you can catch up to me. I don’t want to be the only single girl stumbling off this plane in a drunken stupor.”

Over cocktails, they talked about London and the actors who were waiting for the final pieces of the script to finish the production. As they both relaxed, Bea asked Maggie some rather personal questions about Franco’s death, and how Maggie felt about being alone. In turn, Bea confessed her deep animosity for her ex-husband, who had been carrying on an affair with a prominent actress before Bea tossed him out of the house. It was very enlightening to the divorcee to discover that Maggie had a deep-seated anger at her dead husband, when she had been expecting deep sadness.

“It’s no different, you see,” Maggie insisted. “My husband left me, just like yours left you. The only distinction I can make is that I’ll never see him again, and our son will never see him again. So, yes, I am pissed off.”

Bea had to laugh at Maggie’s outburst, and that set Maggie off into uncontrollable giggling. “Are we drunk enough now, Maggie?” Bea asked between snickers.

“Bea, my dear, we are officially shit-faced,” Maggie assured her new buddy. “I’m sorry, I never used to swear before.”

“That’s all right, I swear all the time and no one seems to take any notice.”

“Look at the time, it’s four in the morning,” Maggie showed Bea her watch. “Don’t we have a meeting in the afternoon?”

“You’re right, we had best get some rest. I think I will quietly pass out here,” Bea said as her eyes closed.

“Let’s order champagne for breakfast,” Maggie suggested as she dozed off.

Slowly, Bea felt sleep tugging at her eyes. She had her shoes kicked off and her head was resting on an airline pillow, with a thin blanket pulled up to her neck. As she felt herself drifting away, she made a mental note to introduce Maggie to Trevor Harwood, the man who had nearly been socked by Karl Hofmeier. Trevor would make Maggie happy because that was the type of man he was, even if it would only last a few weeks. Bea was trying to imagine how Trevor would be able to say goodbye at the end of those few weeks as she finally dozed off.

Two hours from London, Maggie woke up with her mouth as dry as the cotton balls in her make-up bag. The steward was beginning to serve breakfast as Maggie quietly slipped off to the bathroom to fix her face. She stared in the mirror as she tried to repair her hair, where it had become compressed in one spot. A little make-up and clean teeth made her feel more alive, though her reflection revealed a sleep-deprived fatigue. Gazing in the mirror, she was somewhat surprised to see that the woman who looked back at her was the same person who had boarded a plane in Milwaukee the day before. For some reason, she had been expecting to look different this morning. She washed her hands and stopped to look at the ring on her left hand. After she had tossed the paper towel into the bin, she took another look, and then she stared back at the mirror. She hesitated for only a moment before she pulled the ring from her finger and slipped it into the pocket of her black wool trousers. “I am Margaret Mary Griffith, and I am free to do whatever I want,” she said strongly to her reflection.

“Breakfast is served, Bea,” she whispered, gently shaking her companion from sleep.

“How can you be so damned cheery?” Bea grunted.

“I’m a morning person. By the time we get to our meeting, I will be a bitch on wheels,” Maggie promised.

“Maggie, you are going to be great fun,” Bea grinned. “If I ever write a novel, I want you to be my editor.”

Over a breakfast of airplane mystery food and plenty of coffee, Bea prepared Maggie for that afternoon’s meeting. If the plane landed on time they would have just enough time to shower and change clothes, and the promise of a warm shower was more delicious than the hot coffee. Thanks to Miss Kolasa’s very thorough planning, Maggie would find a car waiting at the airport to take her to her hotel, and another would ferry her from the hotel to the meeting at one o’clock. As Maggie explained all that to her companion, she self-consciously rubbed her bare finger, where a ridge remained even though the gold band had disappeared. Maggie felt as though she had undergone some kind of transformation by taking off just one piece of jewelry.




Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Friends In The Wrong Places

Hoorah for the bold young son of Illinois. Barak Obama has been crowned as the second coming of Democratic power, the man who will be king....er, president. Sorry. Go on with you, I'm not the first to make such a slip of the tongue.

The coronation is largely the product of those outside of Illinois who don't quite understand how things work in the Land of Lincoln. Mr. Obama is smart, well-educated and erudite, but it's not what you know but who you know that counts in politics here. Unfortunately for the politicos who seek the crock of gold at the end of the rainbow, their treasure has a bit of tarnish.

According to a story in the second section of the Chicago Tribune, the Obama family has done well. The missus earned a hefty rise in pay, and there's not one who believes her salary is entirely based on merit. Such is the state of the world in Chicago and its environs. Then there was the book, a memoir most successful, and Mr. Obama had plenty of cash to move his family into bigger digs. Which he did, of course. He bought a lovely Victorian, right off the register of historic places, but he could not afford the back yard that was once part of the estate.

It's nice to know who your neighbor might be when there's an empty lot so close to your fence. It turns out that, on the very day the Mr. and Mrs. Senator from Illinois purchased their million dollar pile, Mr. and Mrs. Tony Rezko picked up the available parcel adjoining. Don't know who Tony Rezko is? Ah now, if Barak Obama decides to toss his hat in the ring, you'll be hearing plenty about Mr. Rezko.

Folks in Illinois know all about the unfortunate man, who is currently under federal indictment for shaking down those who would do business with the State of Illinois. They also know that he's a very close friend of the governor himself, who is dodging the strokes of the brush that would tar him as well. As it turns out, Mr. Obama is also a friend of Tony Rezko. Mr. Rezko has donated pocket loads of cash to the Obama campaign coffers. Mr. Obama will be returning it all, by the way. The proceeds of extortion, and all...dirty money does not sit well with the electorate.

At any rate, the Obamas and the Rezkos had a lovely relationship as regards the parcel. When the Obamas wanted to put up a fence, the Rezkos sold them a strip of property so that the fence could be erected further away from the house. Mr. Obama pays to have the empty lot mowed, although he expects to get around to sending Tony a bill eventually. It's a wrought iron fence, by the by. That's of great significance in Chicago, where influence peddling and sweetheart deals have revolved around wrought iron fencing, but that's another story for another day.

Those who would dance in Illinois must take to the floor with some unsavory partners. It'll get them elected at the local level, but once an opponent on the grand ballroom floor displays the cast of characters behind Mr. Obama, he won't seem so grand anymore. It's all about who you know, isn't it, and who you wish you didn't have to acknowledge.
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Single Stem - Chapter 3

Previously: Trying to settle into her new lifestyle, Maggie discovers that the available men are more frog than prince. With a business trip to London looming, she must find someone to mind her son. The stress, mixed with grief and anger over her husband's death, becomes crushing.

Chapter 3

The list of clients who relied on Maggie Griffith Angiolini began to grow as she spent more days at the office. Authors passed her name around at workshops and seminars; Quinlan and Associates had more than enough projects for the four editors to handle. Maggie found herself being swamped by work, but even with the pressure she considered her job to be a delight, from the daily commute to the endless phone calls. Those conversations were probably the best part of every day, when she would lose herself in the discussions she had with creative writers who used words magically. With so much on her mind, she quickly reached the point where she rarely even thought about her husband, pushing him further and further back in her mind with the passing of each busy day. Even so, there were times when Maggie would catch herself looking at the kitchen clock as she prepared dinner, waiting for Franco to walk in the door, but he was not coming home anymore.

“Maggie, there’s something here for you,” Ann said with a tone of mystery. It was a bitterly cold Tuesday, typical for a Chicago January, and Maggie was still trying to warm up from her short walk to the office. She had foolishly worn her suit, and the wind that howled down the river had frozen her knees. Mr. Lawyer From the Tenth Floor had admired her legs, though, which alleviated a great deal of her discomfort. He could look all he wanted, as far as Maggie was concerned, since he was not getting anything from her if he had any ideas. Walking stiffly with a steaming cup of coffee held in both hands, she wandered out to the reception desk to see her unexpected gift.

“Flowers from Mr. Goebel,” Maggie said. She loved receiving such an utterly impractical gift, a blessing of color and beauty that made the swirling snowflakes outside fade away into an imagined sunshine. “His book is going to be published this fall.”

“Ahem,” Ann loudly cleared her throat, trying to be very casual. “Does that mean that he can see you socially now?”

Ann had listened carefully and overheard a few of the conversations, with Bill calling the office nearly every day. He put on a full court press, as the basketball aficionados would call it, asking Maggie to join him for dinner, or a play, or a gallery opening, or anything that could constitute a first date that was held on neutral territory. Citing their business relationship, Maggie had always declined, convincing the professor that her constant badgering and criticism would be detrimental to a personal relationship. With the book finished, Maggie was no longer his editor.

“We share some interests, but I don’t think I’m ready to start seeing men,” Maggie said.

“You’ve been alone for over a month. Don’t you miss it?” Ann asked, trying to be subtle.

“Miss what, sex?” Maggie put Ann on the spot, looking the young woman in the eye.

“Well, yes, I mean, you’re still young,” Ann fidgeted. She was sorry she had asked, but it was one of those things that intrigued her. She had only been married about three years, and could not imagine being suddenly celibate.

“Look, Ann, I was married for over fifteen years. I don’t miss sex,” Maggie said plainly, an older woman’s wisdom shared with youth. “I miss making love. Can you understand the difference?”
“I’m not sure. But you’ll fall in love again.”

“Maybe,” Maggie laughed it off, trying to switch her mood completely around. “But not with Bill Goebel. He’s got too big of an ego for my taste.”

“Now this is where I say something crude and obscene about what he has that is big,” Ann warned, and she was laughing her head off as she answered the phone, immediately pretending to adjust an imaginary set of eyeglasses in perfect imitation of a certain professor. “Of course, Mr. Goebel, I’ll transfer your call at once. Beautiful flowers, yes, she has just picked them up.”

Maggie was trying to stop from snickering as she picked up the phone in her office. Picturing a naked Professor Goebel in bed made her laugh even harder, and she had to cover the receiver so that he could not hear. “They’re lovely, Bill, I can’t thank you enough.”

“Maggie, I have never had a manuscript so well received,” he gushed, his words tumbling out of his mouth as fast as his lips could move. “The publisher mentioned several passages that were outstanding, and they were the sections that you helped me to revise. I want to repay you, to show my appreciation. Please, join me for dinner on Saturday, and I can get tickets for the theatre. You mentioned that drama at the Brandenburg that you wanted to see.”

“I’m very grateful, really,” she said at last. “But I, um, it hasn’t been very long, and well, not yet, I don’t think.”

“You need to get out in the world,” he insisted. “It’s not healthy for you to sit alone at home, with no one to talk to.”

“Yes, but I’m not alone, I have my son, and I have my friends,” she assured him.

“Oh, well, if there is someone else, I will step aside of course,” he offered, the epitome of an eighteenth century gentleman.

“There’s no one else,” she said softly, trying to discourage him but being kind.

“Forgive my haste,” he replied with theatrical grace.

The call was barely finished before she picked up the next, an urgent message from Sonya at Candlewick Press. Within the span of one minute, Maggie came to clearly understand why everyone referred to the woman as “That Bitch”, and her patience evaporated. Don’t take no shit from nobody, her father-in-law had advised last Sunday, and she was not taking it, no indeed. “That’s just pure bullshit,” she said, giving as good as she was getting. “I’m not some fucking floor mat for you to wipe your goddamned shoes on.”

She had lost control, and she looked up to heaven with embarrassment, to ask God to forgive her. Her eyes caught sight of Karl Hofmeier, leaning in the doorway quietly aping a standing ovation.

“Oo-rah,” Karl rumbled, deep and full-throated.

With a forced smile, Maggie wished Sonya a good morning and slowly hung up the phone.

“Feels pretty damn good to squeeze off a couple of rounds, doesn’t it?” he said as he took a seat. “People like that are the ones that get it in the back in combat zones, and no one blinks an eye.”

“I hate to admit this, but it did feel good.”

“Met any eligible men yet? Mrs. Hofmeier and the girls have been beating the bushes, but no soap. Fuck the looks, I tell them, get her a man with a big,” and he held his hands about six inches apart, slowly extending the space as he spoke, “thick, fat…wallet. With good manners.”

“You are a devil in Marine’s clothing. Is this the latest edition of the screenplay?” Maggie asked as he handed her the thick ringed binder. Colorful paper clips popped up from the tops of several pages like warning flags to indicate a problem lurking on the paper.

“Minor corrections, Mrs. Angiolini,” he said pleasantly. He was stern and overbearing with everyone else in the office, but with Maggie he was a sweetheart. “Except as noted with red clips. Red, you see, to indicate that you are to stop them from changing that scene.”

Maggie had to laugh at his clever use of color, and old Lt. Col. Hofmeier winked at her in their charming conspiracy. He had confidence in Maggie, assured that she would never bend if he did not want to give in. At least she could be stubborn while being very pleasant, and she would get her way without creating enemies. Before Karl could elaborate on the problems, the phone rang again.

“Kay, why are you calling so early?” Maggie chirped into the phone. Her sister lived in Los Angeles, and rarely rose before eight. She never called before noon, and it was only ten o’clock in Chicago.

“I call you at ten plenty of times,” Kay protested.

“Exactly, and it is now eight o’clock,” Maggie explained, thinking that perhaps Kay had been partying all night.

“Well, Mom’s kitchen clock reads ten, and her clock was never wrong before,” Kay continued, waiting for her sister to realize that Mom’s kitchen clock was within Kay’s eyesight. It took Maggie a few seconds to comprehend.

“When did you get in? Why didn’t you tell me you were coming?” Maggie said excitedly, her words rushing out in breathless torrents. She pointed at the phone and mouthed ‘my sister’ to Karl.

“That’s one of my clients saying hello to you,” Maggie explained when Kay asked who was shouting across the room. “Military fiction writer, not your preference. Exactly, that’s the one, our father’s all time favorite author.”

“Fabrizio had to go to Chicago for business,” Kay began the saga of her latest romance. “Didn’t Mom tell you about him?”

“Is this the guy from Sienna, in the export business? What was it, Italian pasta or Italian pottery?”

“You know, I really think that our mother has gone deaf or senile,” Kay sighed. “He’s a university professor who’s here on a sabbatical. Steve’s wife introduced us in L.A., and when he asked me to come with him for this conference, I said yes, of course.”

“Dinner this Sunday, you have to come,” Maggie offered at once. She was as eager to spend time with Kay as she was to assess the quality of this newest beau. “Where are you staying, by the way?”

“Not at Mom’s house. Jesus Christ, I’m thirty-five years old and she still won’t let me stay in the same room as Fabrizio,” Kay snorted. “We’re at the Cosmopolitan, just off Michigan Avenue. Let’s meet for lunch, tell Theresa to give you the rest of the day off.”

“We can meet in the lobby of the Cosmopolitan at noon. No shopping though, I have to pick up Joey after school,” Maggie made plans with her sister as quickly as she could, while Hofmeier waited patiently. There was a tiny pang of guilt as she realized that she had seriously planned to go to Mass at noon, with manuscripts already tucked into her tote bag for homework. As she hung up the phone, she asked God to excuse her for another day, but since it was a family matter she assumed that He would understand. Returning her attention to Karl, she apologized for the lengthy interruption.

“I have two girls, Mrs. Angiolini, and I’ve learned to wait my turn,” he chuckled. “Now, back to my script, presented to you for the final going over.”

“Not bad, okay,” she mumbled as she flipped through the corrections. “And where are we at with that troublesome scene?”

“You should expect a call from one of Argosy’s producers,” he began, and his manner of speaking gave Maggie a clear indication of Hofmeier’s animosity to the entire staff of Argosy Productions. His face was beginning to turn red as his blood pressure climbed, brought on by the recollection of his last trip. “The little prick playing the lead character is absolutely against my treatment of my scene from my novel. The director’s taking his side; naturally, all the shitheads like to stick together. The BBC script person is weak as a kitten and she’s weighing in on England’s side; that director has her scared shitless. So, there it is, you’re the voice of America.”

“Thanks, Mr. Hofmeier, three against one,” Maggie said with a touch of sarcasm. “Those are not good odds.”

“Well, we faced worse during the Revolutionary War and we licked the bastards,” he put in cleverly, aware that Maggie was an avid reader of history.

“Perfect, I just have to wear them down and employ guerilla tactics, and of course the French government will support me,” she suggested, for some reason thinking of the Continental Army crossing the Delaware in the middle of winter. “And can I also assume that you made no friends when you worked with them?”

“Semper fi, my girl, I was true to my novel,” he laughed. In fact, Karl Hofmeier was currently despised by half the employees of Argosy Productions, and several people at the BBC Studios would run the other way if they saw him coming. “I know I can count on you, you’re the daughter of a leatherneck and a Bridgeport dago. You’re the little girl who was on Jackie Rago’s payroll.”

“You know how to manipulate me, Mr. Hofmeier. And Jackie only gave me dimes when I went to visit his mother next door, and I never once set foot in Moon’s Tavern with the rest of his crew,” Maggie said. She had told Hofmeier a long time ago about her childhood, when she lived in an Italian neighborhood with a strong Mafia presence. He had written her little tale into his previous novel, after twisting it slightly so that the little girl became a messenger for the Mob. Karl liked to rag her about it, especially when she seemed to need a bit of cheering up. “But I want you to understand, I have to try to resolve these issues from here. You’re fully aware of my situation at home.”

“Where there’s a will,” he said as he rose to leave. “You know, Mrs. Hofmeier always buys a new lipstick when things are fucked up. It always seems to work for her.”

With Hofmeier gone, Maggie raced to Theresa’s office to share the news about Kay and her new boyfriend. Until 11:45 Maggie worked at a furious pace, cramming one more unfinished project into her tote for tonight’s editing session. It was one more thing that Maggie enjoyed about her job, an added benefit that came with working for Theresa. This was a full time job with incredibly flexible hours, and the boss had no problem with giving an employee an afternoon off to spend time with her sister, especially when the boss would monopolize all of that sister’s attention after work. By the time Maggie left, Theresa was already on the phone with Kay, making plans for drinks after six, organizing a little get-together with old friends. It was rather remarkable, but most of their high school clique had stayed in touch and most had stayed in Chicago. Maggie felt rather sorry for poor Fabrizio, who was about to be overwhelmed with new faces and a dozen names.

With a joyful grin, Maggie strode into the lobby of the Cosmopolitan Hotel, where Kay was seated, facing the entrance. “Mags, you look sensational,” Kay cooed as soon as her sister entered, admiring Maggie’s smart attire. Kay was the Griffith girl who read the fashion magazines religiously, and she was thrilled to see that Maggie was finally decked out in the latest style. The crisp wool suit was well paired with the white silk blouse, and the low pumps complimented the elegant outfit.

“We career girls have to look successful,” she replied. “I forgot to ask my sister what subject you teach, Fabrizio.”

“I am a professor of history, Mrs. Angiolini,” he said with a warm charm. Fabrizio Nerini was five years younger than Kay, though his mannerisms made him seem much older. In a way, he reminded Maggie of Franco, but it was just his style of speaking with his hands. There was no doubt that he was Italian, with dark hair and a sharp nose that seemed to celebrate the Caesars of ancient Rome. His clothes were tailored and worn with an elegance that only European men could bring to the drape of fabric.

“Call her Maggie, or she’ll feel old like a grandmother,” Kay suggested, bringing forth an apology from Fabrizio.

“Are you attending the conference at St. Ignatius University? One of my clients is the Chairman of the History Department,” Maggie said, to make the slightly nervous man more relaxed in her presence. Meeting the family of one’s love interest could be stressful, and Maggie hoped to alleviate a bit of the anxiety.

“Professor Goebel, yes, I have spoken to him. He will be leading the symposium on Friday that I am looking forward to,” Fabrizio said happily. Making this connection with Maggie seemed to brighten his face, as if they now had things in common.

“Have you read his book?” Maggie asked, trying to make conversation on a topic that she knew well.

Over an elegant lunch at La Dolce Vita, one of Chicago’s finest hotel dining rooms, Fabrizio felt that he had made a friend of Maggie. He had fallen madly, passionately and deeply in love with Kay, and now he could look to Maggie to recommend him to her parents. They eagerly accepted her invitation to dinner on Sunday, to have a chance to meet with Mr. and Mrs. Griffith on neutral ground. In return they made plans for Saturday night, and Maggie was given a golden opportunity to wear her brand new, simple black dress.

St. Rita’s parking lot was packed with a few hundred cars, driven by a few hundred mothers waiting for their children to be released for the day. It was a ritual that Maggie clung to, as if she had made time stand still by doing something that she had done before Franco died. Everything would be fine, so long as she was in this parking lot at half past three every weekday.
Taking the same route home, another source of comfort, she noticed the bare trees that lined the street, with branches that almost shivered in the cold. The only warmth came from the glowing windows of the mansions that they passed as they drove through the old and well-to-do part of town on their way to their little cottage on the fringes of River Oaks.

“Say, you’ll never guess who called me today.”

“Grandma?” Joey asked, not aware of his mother’s enthusiasm.

“You’re close. The call did come from Grandma’s house,” Maggie continued. “Here’s a big clue, the last time I talked to this person she called me from California.”

“Aunt Kay is here?” Joey jumped to attention.

“She’s coming for dinner on Sunday, with your grandparents and her new boyfriend. He’s really sweet, a nice guy from Italy. I met him at lunch today.”

“When are you going to have a boyfriend?” Joey asked out of nowhere.

“What brought that up?”

“Aunt Kay always has some guy around to take her places. Don’t you want to go out to dinner and stuff like you used to?”

“Well, sure, Joey, but I don’t know any men that I want to spend time with,” Maggie said, trying to find the right way to tell her son that she was not like Aunt Kay. All those years of marriage had affected her philosophy about men, and she pretty much knew what she liked and what she did not like in a male companion. There was no way to tell him what she really thought, that dating lead quickly to sex. Three dates, hop into bed, and she was not ready to face that part of life.

“I don’t care if you have a boyfriend,” Joey continued. “Katie Parker’s mom has a boyfriend, and Katie says her mom’s a lot happier since she started going out with him.”

She looked over at him and gently touched his hand. “Thanks. It means a lot to me that you would say that. Before I forget, can you spend Saturday night with Rob or Cullen? Aunt Kay is taking me to dinner in the city, and I don’t want you home alone half the night.”

“Sure, okay. Maybe she’s gonna fix you up with someone.”

“I hope not.”

The week passed quickly, with Kay’s calls added to Bill Goebel’s daily chat, on top of the dozens of calls from publishers and writers that had to be dealt with promptly. She had made the mistake of telling Bill all about her sister’s new beau, and Bill had pigeonholed the hapless Italian and taken him everywhere, acting the part of tour guide. Not only did Bill call every day, he had to provide a complete rundown on every site visited, and every meal eaten, along with anecdotes about the other historians they had met. By Thursday, Maggie felt like her ear was being molded to fit the end of the phone receiver that was always pressed against her head. As soon as one call ended, she took another, and Thursday was more of the same. Mary Ann Fowler and her publisher signed off and the phone rang again.

“Mrs. Angiolini? Bea Parkhurst here, Argosy Productions. Mr. Hofmeier has given me your name,” the woman said, her perfect British inflection giving her away.

“Yes, I’ve been expecting your call,” Maggie said pleasantly. “And please, call me Maggie, it’s less of a mouthful.”

“Can we get right down to business?” Bea said with a hesitant note, as if she was afraid that Maggie would turn into a female version of Karl Hofmeier, foul-mouthed and foul-tempered. She was business-like, but something in Bea’s voice seemed open, more like talking to an old friend after a long absence.

“Absolutely, Miss?” Maggie inquired.

“Just Bea is fine,” she replied in an affable way. “I’ve been Miss and Mrs. and Miss again, and it does get a bit confusing to keep the title straight.”

“I understand that Mr. Hofmeier has left a bad impression behind,” Maggie said. “I’ve worked with him before, and I know his moods well.”

“At our last meeting, Maggie, I thought that he was going to pop Trevor squarely in the nose,” Bea confessed, “and our director is on the verge of pulling out of the production.”

“Mr. Hofmeier has a very deep attachment to this particular story, and there are some things that he will never change,” Maggie began the delicate negotiations.

“Unfortunately, Trevor and our director have become equally determined to see things done in a certain way,” Bea went on, still pleasant in tone. “Trying to come to terms over the phone appears to be futile at this point.”

“That is not what I was hoping to hear,” Maggie sighed. “Are you sure that the situation has become so hopeless?”

“I cannot begin to explain the disaster that I am trying to repair,” Bea said, the exasperation in her voice very clear, “and at what cost to Argosy. Mr. Hofmeier was the right to pull the plug, and everything that has been done to date would be scrapped. Very expensive scrap at that.”

“Hmm, I shouldn’t expect a welcoming party when I arrive, then,” Maggie said almost to herself.

“Mr. Hofmeier did ask me to look after you while you are here, and he explained your situation to me, but we are in a terrible bind over here. I’ll be in New York next week, and I fly back home on the eighth. I’ll have my secretary fax my flight information to you and we can travel together. Two girls on the town in London, how can you say no?”

“Bea, you’re an angel, of course I can’t say no.”

“Very well, then, all settled. We can talk about some of the changes on the flight if you like, get a head start, and I’ll fill you in on our cast of characters. You’d better give it ten days at least, a fortnight if Quinlan and Associates can spare you.”

Maggie hung up the phone and put her head down on her desk. A week with Rob, the next with Cullen, and she did not know how she could possibly ask anyone for such an enormous favor. It would be worse when she picked up Joey later and told him that she had to go to London. The look on Joey’s face when she relayed the sad news was so heartbreaking that Maggie thought she would be sick.

On the ride home, Joey pouted, sullen and silent, acting as though he were being punished for no reason while his mother was allowed to fly off to Europe without him. At basketball practice, he took out his frustrations on his teammates with flying elbows and angry shoving. It got to the point that the coach had to pull him from the scrimmage and sit him down on the bench, where he tore into the boy for his childish behavior. While Joey cried himself to sleep that night, Maggie cried in her empty bed, discouraged at her own inability to fix everything. Some things were beyond repair, like Franco’s health and Franco’s death. Some things were unfair to Joey, like this upcoming trip, but there was nothing that Maggie could do to make it better. Sooner or later, she knew that she would have to accept the fact that time did not run in reverse, no matter how many prayers she offered up every day.

Pete was his usual persistent self on Friday, ignoring the long line of customers that waited to place their pizza order at the counter while he asked Maggie very bluntly to go out with him next week. “Say, dinner and a movie and then whatever you feel like doing after,” he suggested.

“I have to go to London next week, sorry,” she apologized, silently thanking Bea Parkhurst for saving her from having to tell Pete the truth. She had no desire to go to a movie with him, and whatever she felt like doing after would not include romping in bed with him. All she needed these days was her own company, at least until she found a man with the right qualities. Only then would she be ready to open her heart and welcome a new man into her life.

While Maggie climbed up to her usual perch for the Saturday afternoon game, Greta made a grand announcement. “Barb, our Maggie is going out to dinner tonight.”

“With whom?” Barb asked in a teasing way. “Tom Parker, the stud of River Oaks?”

“Oh, never with Parker. Maggie is way too old for him,” Peggy sniggered. “I’ve seen his new girlfriend. Bleached blonde and fake boobs, and if she’s over sixteen I’d be surprised.”

“Isn’t Andy Duncan’s father a plastic surgeon?” Maggie said. “Should I go in for an estimate?”

“You have a manicure,” Greta jumped up in surprise. Maggie had always been a little tightfisted, cutting corners and skimping on luxuries to save a few dollars. She had not had her nails done for years, but tonight was her first time out without a husband, and she had splurged on a touch of glamour to suit the occasion. She proudly displayed her red painted nails, laughing and joking through the game. She was still giddy when she sent Joey off with Greta, who demanded a complete report to be delivered over coffee on Sunday morning.

Looking forward to a night on the town, Maggie rummaged around in her dresser for some sexy lingerie that she had not worn for many years. If she felt attractive, she would look the part, and there was a spark of confidence in her eye as she drove to the city. The valet at the restaurant gave her a quick glance as she handed him her keys, and his sly look lifted her spirits. Young women might resent such suggestive leers, but a woman like Maggie, nearing forty and on the edge of the dating world, actually appreciated the reassurance that came with being desirable.

Five hours later, she drove blindly down Michigan Avenue, heading south when she meant to travel north. Kay and Fabrizio were going to take care of Joey, a blessing if ever she needed one. Even that great news could not improve the evening. Just when she thought she was past such horrors, Maggie had lived through a night from hell. Stopping her car in the middle of the road as soon as she passed the Wrigley Building, she jumped out as it idled on the bridge. She yanked Franco’s picture out of her wallet, the one taken at Little Carlo’s wedding, and she began to tear it up into tiny pieces as she hurried to the side of the bridge. Little scraps, fluttering like snowflakes, drifted down to the dark water that flowed under her feet.

“God damn you to hell, Franco Angiolini,” she screamed at the river. “I will never forgive you, never.”

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Single Stem -- Chapter 2

Previously: A week after her husband's untimely death, Maggie is dealing with a new job, business travel, childcare problems, and a nagging doubt about whether or not she'll ever be a part of a couple again.

Chapter 2

St. Rita’s gym was buzzing with eighth grade energy. The boys on the team were jabbering to each other as they ran through their warm up drills while the girls in the stands were chattering like a flock of starlings as they eyed the boys. Maggie took up her position in the upper bleachers, where she sat with Greta Burns and Peggy Reardon, while their husbands clustered together on the first row. Mike and John were trying to fill the space, but without Franco there the gap was very noticeable.

“Peggy, would you mind if I took the carpool tonight?” Maggie asked, looking for something to do to fill her time.

“Can you? That would be perfect, Ashley has a sleep over at Missy’s,” Peggy responded absent-mindedly. “It’s date night. Oh, gosh, I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that.”

“Please, Peggy, please be normal,” Maggie said. “Let’s talk like we always did, okay?”

“She’ll have date night herself, Peggy,” Greta said, grinning to cheer up Maggie. “And then she’ll have to tell us all the details.”

A cell phone began to ring as the game was getting underway, and slowly Maggie realized that it was her phone, the one she always carried in case her elderly parents needed something. She jumped up and raced out of the gym so that she could stand in the foyer of the grade school to take the call that could only be trouble. Her mother never called on the cell phone except for emergencies, thinking that it must cost a fortune for the convenience.

“I am terribly sorry to have interrupted a family event,” the man on the other end was apologizing after Maggie had explained the noise level in the background. “And on a Saturday, as if you were on call twenty four hours a day.”

She heard barely half of the sentence, with her mind focused on the game and Joey’s drive up the lane. Through the open door she could see Greta and Peggy, waggling eyebrows in an attempt to communicate their concern. After all, who else would be calling on a Saturday morning besides an elderly parent, and a call that like could only mean that something was terribly wrong. Just as she was began to move her hand, to give them a thumbs up, all is well sign, the words and the voice came together and Maggie forgot all about her girlfriends.

“Is everything all right?” Greta nervously whispered when Maggie returned to her seat.

“I was just asked out on a date tonight by the Chairman of the History Department of St. Ignatius University,” she said in a voice filled with amazement.

“You’re not going, are you?” Peggy said, horrified at the thought.

“Of course not, Peg, it’s against the rules,” Maggie assured her friends. It was unheard of to snap up an evening engagement for the same day it was offered, and she would never go out with one of her clients, especially when she had not even met him yet.

With Joey spending the night with a friend, Maggie had the house all to herself for the first time. Her ears kept picking up strange noises and crackling that she had never noticed before. She watched a silly movie, one that made her cry, and drank two glasses of wine while she read over Mary Ann Fowler’s latest bit of fluff. There was something about the novel that reminded her of Franco, something that stirred up bad feelings. “You were selfish, that’s what it was all along,” she said to his photograph that stood on the mantle of the fireplace. “You wouldn’t have left me alone like this if you cared about me.”

Unable to sleep, even though it was past one in the morning, Maggie decided to clean the house. She ran the vacuum over the family room rug, but it did not really need cleaning. She mopped the kitchen floor, but the wash water in the bucket was nearly as pristine as it had been at the beginning. Year after year she had listened to Franco railing about the dirty house, harping about the mess and the pigsty, while she felt guilty that her job took up too much time. She came to believe that her little projects for Theresa kept her from her household chores, and now she finally saw that the mess and dirt came from Franco. He never bothered to pick up after himself, the clutter and filth was all from him, and it had been his fault. For the first time, Maggie faced the truth, but she could not understand why was she sobbing about it now.

She sat with Joey at the kitchen table on Sunday afternoon, not wanting to be alone. “Hey, you have homework too,” Joey noticed as his mother began to leaf through a manuscript.

“If I do it right, I won’t have to go to England,” she said, to bring up the topic that had not yet been discussed. “Listen, I may have to go on a business trip in February, and you might have to stay with Rob or Cullen, just a few days. I don’t want to go, and I’m trying my best to get out of it, so maybe things will work out all right.”

“Nice to have a vacation in the winter,” Joey mumbled, his feelings very bruised. It was going to be another problem, another crisis, all thanks to Franco. Maggie felt her temper begin to rise, as if she could scream out in anger at the situation she was left in, but that would not resolve the quandary, any more than two glasses of wine helped her sleep last night.

They worked in silence, with Maggie’s red pencil making notations in the margins of Hofmeier’s screenplay. Since movies were not filmed in sequence, she had only to edit the portions that had been revised since the production began. Hofmeier had already explained to her that the entire project was now being held up until he approved these last few scenes, and Maggie was trying to be quick as well as thorough. She had never been involved in movie making, but she presumed that since time is money for any business, this delay was causing the British production company an enormous sum.

Maggie ran out to the grocery store, and returned to find her son sprawled on the sofa. “Pete D’Ascenzi called,” Joey reported from his post in front of the television. “He wants to take you dancing, he said.”

“Yeah, dancing between the sheets,” Maggie said under her breath. She would have to call him back, if only to be polite, but she had absolutely no desire to talk to him. He was a nice enough person, but he was not the sort of man that she pictured herself with. Since talking to her new client, she pictured her desired suitor as someone rather intellectual like Professor Goebel, and maybe he was a possibility. Maggie was relieved to hear Pete’s voice mail come on so that she only had to leave a message, and she hoped that it would be the end of it.

Ann was grinning like a fool when Maggie showed up at work on Monday, as if she had played a marvelous practical joke. “Sorry I gave him the cell number, but he was so insistent and I was on my way out the door on Friday when he called,” Ann explained.

Maggie and Theresa had their meeting, which was not really necessary but it was so pleasant to start the day with coffee and chatter, to recall Uncle Enzo and the time he took his nieces smelting one April. The jangling of the phones spelled an end to the fun, and Maggie raced back to her office to take a call.

“Mr. Goebel from St. Ignatius,” Ann announced into the phone. “Sounds like a real horse’s ass, worse than Friday afternoon.”

“Thanks for the warning,” Maggie replied. “Wait till I tell him that he has to rewrite half the book.”

“Oh, and last Friday I told him you were single, sorry,” Ann said quietly as she transferred the call.

“Good morning, Professor,” Maggie began in her sweetest voice. “I have all day to give you now, but do you have time to talk?”

Being accorded that little bit of respect through his honorary title was enough to soften Bill Goebel’s attitude, with Maggie’s tone calming a twitching ego. “If it will take some time, Mrs. Angiolini, your news cannot be good.”

"It's only bad news if you expected to publish this book by tomorrow, and I know that you weren't expecting that," she said lightly, trying to ease her way into the discussion.

"Quite true," he agreed. "There is the sound of extensive revisions in your voice, I would say. Perhaps it would be best to discuss them in person, say, over lunch?"

“Can we make it a working lunch?” Maggie begged. Every minute of the day had to be put to good use if she were to get out of the office on time. “I have to catch an early train.”


“I can see you in your office in an hour, if you are free,” he said. In the background, muffled, she was sure that he was telling someone to cover the lecture for History 302, which was starting in one hour. “And I will bring lunch; I know this charming little bistro that has a great chef. I am sure that you will enjoy whatever he can prepare for us.”

Maggie’s first meeting with her new client was rather awkward, since it was obviously not going to be quite what she was expecting. Bill Goebel brought more than lunch; he included wine and a bouquet of red roses in the unwieldy package that he hauled over on the ‘El’. Theresa had been dead on accurate with her description of the professor, who was not the least bit attractive. Short, pudgy and balding, he had been divorced for the past five years, after his wife decided that she needed some space. It was understandable; the man was suffocating in his attentions.

One of the first things that Maggie noticed was his sturdy horn rim glasses, which had a tendency to slide down his nose so that he had the irritating habit of constantly readjusting them. The incessant movement of finger to bridge of nose quickly began to grate on Maggie’s nerves, but he was a paying client and she had to earn a living. She cleared the top of her desk, spread out his manuscript, and for ninety minutes Maggie had to refocus his thoughts to the work at hand, while Bill went off on tangents relating to Chicago’s nightspots.
Precisely at noon, Bill presented his picnic offering with great pride. He was a regular patron of Bistro La Tour, allowing him the luxury of pleading with the owner to prepare a lunch suitable to impress an available woman. As Maggie discussed the revisions of the eighth chapter, Bill spread a buttery foie gras on freshly baked slices of rye bread, arranging them on a napkin with an eye to presentation. Over a plate of tuna salad Nicoise they made corrections to the closing paragraph. She could not remember the last time she had eaten such marvelous cuisine, a delightful meal that almost made her forget about Bill’s sliding glasses.

“You are overwhelmed and swamped now, I’m sorry,” she said, the wine warming her outlook on life. “Not the proper way to thank you for this wonderful lunch.”

“Not at all, this has actually been the most pleasant dressing down that I have ever received,” Bill said, pushing at his glasses for the millionth time. “In fact, I may not make all these changes, just so I can have another session with you.”

“Be careful, Professor Goebel. If you disobey my orders, I can be very strict,” she replied, joking through a wine-laced haze. Unaccustomed to drinking in the middle of the day, one glass of Entre-Deux-Mers had mellowed her senses and washed away her apprehension.

“I am in fear, madam. A rap across the knuckles with a wooden ruler from Sister Maggie,” he replied in kind. “How about next Friday night, if you can meet me again I will have all my work finished. Dinner at the bistro is far better than the lunch.”

Surprised at the unexpected invitation, Maggie took in the overall package of Bill Goebel while she tried to compose a sober reply. He was a dull and dowdy college professor, attired in khaki pants and a tweed blazer that fit about ten pounds ago. Even though he was the exact opposite of Pete, Bill was no more her type than the pizza man. Where Pete was aggressive, Bill was much more subtle in asking her out, suggesting a business dinner that would masquerade as a date. Beyond their styles, she analyzed their personalities, and could not find the right qualities in either man. Out of appreciation for Bill’s clever tactics, she selected the kindest, most gentle manner of brushing him off without hurting his feelings.

“You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to go there. But Friday night is family night, I’m sorry, but you understand, don’t you?” she said.

“Bring your children, I would love to meet them,” he blurted out. He cringed slightly, as if he realized that his offer was much too forward for a first date, entirely too pushy.

“Let me explain before you make this commitment,” she said, gently touching his arm. “My son is thirteen, and he would be joined by his two friends. Have you ever seen thirteen-year-old boys eat? It’s not an appetizing sight.”

His eyes locked onto her fingertips and seemed to glow. At once, Maggie snatched her hand back, afraid that she was sending the wrong signal. She meant to be gentle, not to imply that he should ask again, but pick a different night. Returning her hand to her lap, she pictured his manuscript, recalling in detail the chapter that was devoted to the eighteenth century belief that women had to have sex after the experiences of marriage. When they went over the footnotes, she had asked him if he really believed it. He had never answered her directly, and now she was horrified to think that he just might be planning to assist her with some imagined urges. Growing nervous, she gripped her wedding ring and began to roll it up and down her finger. The symbolic power and protection of the gold band was not there anymore.

“You have only to name the time and place, madam, and I will tote my manuscript wherever I must go,” he offered in his most gentlemanly fashion.

“Work carefully on these rewrites, Bill, and call me when you’ve finished. For now, let’s stick to meeting during the day,” she said, eager to get him out of her office so that she could get back to the customers who had called during the meeting.

Maggie escorted her love-struck client to the elevator, offering a few bits of advice about the use of commas and semi-colons. She carried the bouquet of roses, hoping that Ann had a large vase somewhere in her well-stocked closet of office supplies. Bidding Mr. Goebel a good afternoon as the elevator door clicked shut, she handed the flowers to Ann. “Even roses make a horse’s ass smell better, Miss Annie.”

“A little wine makes a big difference, too,” Ann smiled back. “Are you drunk, Mrs. Angiolini?”
“Me, drunk? No, just a little happy,” Maggie said. “Look at the time; I have to get hold of Tessa Perritt in New York before I can catch my train.”

“Tell the conductor to wake you up at River Oaks,” Ann shot back, “or you’ll find yourself in Kenosha with drool trickling down your chin.”

At dinner on Friday night, Maggie was much more animated and full of smiles as she spoke to friends at the D’Ascenzi Pizzeria. While the boys played games, she sipped a glass of red wine and chatted with some old neighbors whom she had not seen since Franco’s funeral. It was a very relaxing evening after a very special day. Maggie had received her first paycheck, bigger numbers than she had seen on a slip of paper for years.

After the Saturday basketball game, Joey went home with Cullen for a so-called sleepover, which was actually a way to talk to girls on the phone without Mom listening in. Maggie knew that because Cullen and Rob did the calling at her house while Joey stood guard and kept her away from the phone. On her way home, she stopped at the hardware store and bought a can of paint. The bedroom was hers alone these days, and she was going to paint it whatever color she liked. If she was going to be happy, she would have to create her own happiness.

By the time that Joey came home on Sunday afternoon, Maggie had painted the room, washed the bedspread and polished the furniture. The armoire that had been emptied by the ladies of St. Rita’s Grieving Guild and Used Clothing Drive was now filled with Maggie’s summer clothes, all the extra things that used to be stored in the attic for lack of space. Overnight, she had rearranged the room to suit her new life, accepting the fact that she was alone now and she was going to deal with it.

“I’m going to say hi to Nonna at the nursing home,” Maggie said at noon on Sunday. “Back in an hour. Go study.”

The woman who waltzed into the kitchen at half past three was not the same person who had left earlier. Her arms were loaded down with shopping bags, deep green and shiny red paper that crackled as she deposited her treasures on the nearest chair.

“Pete called,” Joey announced as Maggie walked in the door. “What took so long, I though you were only going to see Nonna. What’s with the Rivers Oaks Shop bags?”

“I went shopping,” Maggie practically sang with joy. With her first paycheck she had splurged on a visit to one of River Oaks’ finest women’s boutiques, where Mrs. Sherman selected the outfits for her customers. Suits and cocktail dresses could be paired with the perfect accessories, and Maggie had only experienced such a delightful bit of pampering when she needed a special ensemble for Little Carlo’s wedding.

The professional businesswoman now owned a very elegant suit and a simple black dress. There was not an occasion yet for a cocktail dress, but Maggie expected that something was going to come along. One of these days, she would not be sitting at home alone, but she would be out on dates with interesting men who gave her compliments and noticed if she changed her hair style. One fine day, she would be in the company of men who would drop everything to take her to the theatre because they wanted to satisfy her whims. Some day soon, she would have love affairs and find out what it was like to have sex with other men besides Franco. Mrs. Sherman had been pretty specific about the affair business. “You cannot mourn your husband forever,” she had said, “and it certainly isn’t doing you any good now.”

Stalling on the return call to Pete, Maggie talked to her mother while she made Sunday dinner. Holding the phone to her ear with her shoulder, she sautéed a few anchovies and garlic in olive oil but her mind was not on her task. “I can leave him with friends, but it’s a long time to ask someone to take care of him,” she said as she tossed the broccoli into the mix. “Are you sure that you and Pops can’t live here for a week?”

“You know how your father is,” Angie Griffith sighed. “He won’t even go on a vacation anymore. You know, if you had married that nice Bellasteri boy you wouldn’t be in this mess.”

“Please, mom, Luca and I did not get along,” Maggie groaned, tired of hearing about that nice Bellasteri boy, the same story over and over again. Her mother had never cared for Franco, and now she would never forgive him for dying young.

“You’ve helped Greta and Peggy plenty of times, it won’t hurt them to give you a hand,” Angie reminded her daughter. “They wouldn’t have offered if they didn’t want to help out, and it’s only for what, a week or so?”

“I don’t even know yet, I’m guessing about a week, maybe only a few days.”

“So, you go away for a few days and Joey won’t even know that you’re gone,” Angie said. “It’s like a vacation for him, to get away from his mother.”

“Thanks, I feel special now. I don’t know what to do, Mom. If I wasn’t so far away, like if I had to go to New York or something, I wouldn’t feel so guilty about leaving him.”

“What about the divinity school over in Willow Park?” Angie suggested. “Maybe you could hire one of the graduate students to live in the house and keep an eye on Joey.”

There would be no easy solution, Maggie could see that, and she puzzled over her options as she sorted through the laundry. Evading the questions that peppered her thoughts, she tried to tell herself that she should be happy with so much less housework now, with one less person to care for. The piles of sorted clothes were noticeably smaller, which meant the chore would be finished earlier and she would have more time to herself, to read or work on needlepoint if she wanted. As she tossed Joey’s shirts into the washing machine, she went back to her dilemma, mulling over her mother’s suggestion about leaving her boy with strangers from the Evangelical College.

Joey was her responsibility, and if she hired someone to come to the house, she would be paying for her son’s care, which seemed more reasonable than expecting Greta to foot the bill. Neither Peggy or Greta would accept a dime if she offered, but Maggie could not even think about delivering Joey to their care when it would be a free ride. More than anything, she wanted to do things on her own, without having to rely on anyone to fill Franco’s place. It was Franco who should be looking after his son, her mind told her; the man who had fathered the boy should have some stake in his care. This was supposed to be a team effort, mother and father together, but Franco had eaten his way out of the job. Grief enveloped her, crushing the air from her lungs with a choking embrace. Maggie slumped to the floor of her basement laundry room and wept, her self-pity and sorrow churning together as if swept up in a swirling flash flood.
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